It is good to have the beginning of answers. The doctor has sent me for a scan of my chest as apparently I have some fluid on one of my lungs. That explained to me why I had flem for no apparent reason.
But what has been getting to me of late was the lack of energy I have been experiencing. Normally I am a “go get um” type when I have things to do. But I have just slept heaps even though I knew I had things that needed doing. Yesterday was different. I was “up and atom.” There were things to do, and I was your man to get them done. Merril was into it yesterday too. I was going out at 10am in the morning. Before that I helped Merril get stuff set up in the granny flat. We have had the work done and now we are populating the area and setting it up the way we want. We have used cupboards and benches from our old kitchen. We have also ordered a cupboard from Bunnings and need to put up shelves. We also got a bench from the guy who built the cabin. The bench needed to be cut as it was slightly too long and the original cutting had left chips at the end. We wanted to avoid that, so we took the bench top outside after Merril had marked where to cut. We clamped another board on the bench to help me avoid doing a Doggy Brothers cut. I grabbed a saw and cut the bench. I was not looking forward to it as I knew it would be time consuming and not easy. The good thing was though it worked a treat. Merril has been filling in gaps and painting it. I am hoping all is in readiness by the end of January. Anyone could use it right now but there are a few things we want to do. That is not counting the outside, but we are getting things in place to work on that area. They say a change is as good as a holiday. Well, I do not feel like this is a holiday, but I am liking it.
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One thing I find really interesting is that my thoughts are totally unpredictable. While I will always endeavour to think about things that will help me and others that can even take me in odd directions.
I was considering the little matter of the whole of human history (lol). It occurred to me that the only constant is the condition of the human heart. When I look into the past and all over the world kingdoms have come and gone. Some last generations but none stands for all time. The Roman empire came and went. The Incas came and went. Chinese dynasties came and went. There seems to be a new order arising across the world. Alliances are being forged and there is a jockeying for power and position. Some will gain ascendency while others will be confined to also rans in human history. So much to me seems to be a different manifestation from on the same plain. These days we are calling it from extreme left to extreme right. Somewhere in the middle has been democracy. It has endevoured to be fair and give all a voice. But right now it is being superseded by doctrines of force that seeks what it wants based on the end justifying the means. That is, if it takes lying and force that is ok if I get what I want. Trust to me is a seen as a cute and deep down desirable thing, but it is seen to be impotent against forces that are willing to use my trust to get what is wanted. There is only one kingdom I know of that transcends history and that is a kingdom that was said to be not of this world. That to me makes sense, as history has shown that fixing the human heart takes an outside influence. And to me the human heart needs fixing as we never seem to learn from our mistakes. We make the same ones over and over. In the meantime the garden needs work. And the Studio shed. And the Cabin (granny flat). Oh and the world needs changing (lol) - but the best I think I can do in that regard is recognise I need changing and do what it takes. I was looking at comments made by different ones concerning books.
There was one made by a Paul Sweeney that I instantly related to. “you know you’ve read a good book when you turn the last page and feel a little as if you have lost a friend.” I know that feeling. Some books I finish and am sad when I do. The good thing is I can read the same book again and again. Books by C.S.Lewis have done that to me plus the Cossacks by Leo Tolstoy. Another comment I read that I really like was by an Arthur Helps. “If you would understand your own age, read the works of fiction produced in it. People in disguise speak freely.” To me that is true on several levels. It was only yesterday someone was telling me that whenever they share personal stuff it is in the third person. That way no link can be made to them, but they can speak their mind. It’s funny but I look at that comment in relation to movies and tv programs produced today. To me it is one of those cases of asking which came first the chicken or the egg. The underlying theme of many shows produced today is one of violence, deception and misery. To me that describes the age in which we live. On the one hand is a longing for peace and stability but reality is the exact opposite. Movies may have a happy ending but getting there so often involves wading through filth. When it comes to books, I know I am a slow reader but there are few things in my mind as satisfying as a good book well written. An as yet unthought of thought that can open an unexplored world. A turn of phrase that softens and inspires. Although subjective it can make me a better person. Hazel Rochman said “reading makes immigrants of us all. It takes us away from home but more important, it finds homes for us everywhere.” Another thing I like, “from your parents you learn love and laughter and how to put one foot before the other. But when books are opened you discover you have wings.” That was from a book called “On Reflection.” I love the pleasant surprise of a good book from an unknown author. What I love about books is how they can broaden my horizons without me leaving my room. A book can change me. As Franz Kafka said, “a book should serve as an axe for the frozen sea within us.” |