This is different.  I ended up spending the night at the hospital.  Merril knows how things work.  I had rung one place seeking accommodation and was told they were full.  They did not even have a stable they could put me up in.  No surprise there really.  Not many inner city lodgings have them these days.  I also rang another place and it went to message bank.  The hospital provided me with a fold out bed.
Merril had a replacement stent put in.  We are actually both really pleased with the outcome.  Merril has no more pain and question I has as to why this was happening were answered.  So often Merril was freezing on a warm day.  I knew there was a problem somewhere and it was located.
I did come to the hospital thinking I would take Merril home yesterday after the procedure.  The fist sign I did not expect was that Merri was booked in for 2pm after having to register at 10am.  She actually was worked on at about 4.30pm.
Then to see her in a bed wheeled by made me think “I don’t think she is coming home tonight.”  I was right.
Fortunately I had been to the cafeteria to get food.  But I do think they may be in cahoots with the hospital.  I had a BLT and toasted ham, cheeze and tomato sandwich and 2 coffees and it cost me over $33.  I decided I did not want a sandwich there when I saw it was $9.80.  So my thinking is the cafeteria and hospital are sharing the take.  I am thinking that the cafeteria thinks people here may be on their last legs, so they want a cut of their hard earned and inheritance.  They may have decided and are working towards a sandwich costing me all of what I have put away.
But I am glad we now have an answer to what has perplexed me.  Sometime today I anticipate we will be home.

Well here we are.  It is the day Merril has her angiogram to hopefully give us some idea what is going on.  Depending on the result it may mean an overnight stay for Merril.
My mind is sort of not post focused at the moment.  As if what Merril is facing was not enough, I need to do the driving home.  I don’t drive any real distances at the moment.  But this is not about me. I will just be glad when it is over.  I think it is even more so for Merril.  All will be revealed.
Because of the above I thought I would make it dictionary day.  No help at all really.  My finger fell on a word I had never heard of “concelebrate.”  It means, “two or more priests celebrate mass together (esp. newly ordained priests)”.
I confess using the Australian Concise Oxford Dictionary I am surprised my finger feel on that.  It was really something I needed to look up as I have a different tradition.  Apparently it has remained in Eastern Orthodoxy but was not practiced for centuries in the Roman Catholic church.
All these things I never knew about.  I am one that is like “any excuse for a celebration.”  But that is me.  I actually don’t know when I will feel the need to celebrate beyond what is really for me a continual celebration.  That does not mean that only good stuff happens as I am a part of life, and I don’t know what will be dished up, but I do know whatever happens there is a good outcome.
It sounds like it has stopped raining outside.  I need to get stuff together for the trip.  I reckon for me there will be a bit of reading today along with a lot of waiting.  Time to prepare.

I am big on the following.  It was a quote from a James Clear email a while ago.
"If you look for evidence that people are conspiring to hold you back and the world is working against you, then it will take you no time at all to find precisely that. If you expect to encounter helpful people and experience a world that is working with you, then you find plenty of evidence to support that view as well.
The raw material for a sweet life or a bitter life is always there. The story you emphasize is the one you notice."
What I am big on is what I emphasise grows.  It is true for myself and others.  Only the other day someone mentioned they felt they needed a bath after taking with another.  The reason was the negativity that was emphasised.
I think most people experience examples of that and I know I endevour to not be that person.  It is so easy to talk about the bad things that may be happening to me or the bad things I see happening in the world.  The other day someone said they no longer concentrate on something as they found they were getting angrier and angrier.  So the best thing to do was walk away.
It is not a case of burying my head in the sand, but a choice I make not to treat it like it is all there is.  As the quote emphasises both elements are present.  Good and bad.  As always I have a choice.  If I choose to emphasise the bad, then there is plenty to keep me going.  There seems to be more and more of it at the moment.
But I can also choose to emphasise the good.  Instead of highlighting the obvious bad I highlight the good.  As has been stated much more is achieved via carrot than stick.  I am thinking it is what “pass it forward” is all about.
When I encourage and highlight the good then good tends to become more pervasive.   The “Butterfly Effect.”   I want to be a part of the solution rather than a part of the problem.