Two Steps Forward and One Step Backwards

One thing I really like about the lifestyle I live, is the fact that each day can is a fresh start.
It may be that one day I feel blah.  Sometimes it is just a cycle of life, and I am down on myself for no apparent reason.  At other times my head is full of unfounded accusations.  It can be that I have habitually entertained such thoughts from time to time, and it is like a weakness in my defences. 
At other times I have blown it and I know it.  My actions can be passive and my having blown it is an inaction thing.  I find there are two types of blowing it for me.  Doing what I know not to do, and sometimes not doing what I know to do.
Fortunately neither need not be terminal. This is where the lifestyle thing comes in.  I can determine that I will not let the way I feel, and what I do at certain times, define me.  I find no-one including myself benefits from me giving up and taking my bat and ball home.
I guess in a lot of ways it takes acknowledging I am not as good as I thought I was.   Any good in me is a gift and I take that for granted at my peril.
Thankfully each day is opportunity for a fresh start.  I acknowledge my short comings and where I need to spit it out.  Ok that is not easy.  It is not easy to acknowledge that I am not as good as I think I may be, and I need help to be good.
The good thing though I reckon is a fresh start always keeps me on the path I want to be on.  And the more I remain familiar with the path the more inclined I am to stick with it.
Many had a go at someone saying, “life wasn’t meant to be easy.”  In some contexts, it was right to have a go at someone saying that.  But in another way, I reckon it is true. Yet for me so often hard is worth it.  And I have found that hard is the exception and always corresponds with growth if I let it.