Stress

A radical thought occurred to me today.  It was like an “hello, hello, hello, what’s this then” moment.  I thought, “if I ponder on this maybe there is something good at the end of it.”  That turned out to be the case.  Putting it into words is a bit of a challenge though.
It sort of continues on from yesterday’s theme.  I think that what I experience is a common thing when I say there are parts of me I would prefer were not there.
I am not talking physical here.  Though I could do without the gut, but you can tell a man is on the level if his bubble is in the middle.  That’s me.  Any other physical defects you see are your problem to deal with.
I am thinking there are parts of my personality I would prefer were dealt with.  I must say though there are other parts being worked on and I am chuffed.  If I were a surfer, I would say “I’m stoked”.
 Anyway, there is stuff I would really like to see gone.  But it stays for now.  I must say there is a chipping away happening and I am in a place now I never dreamed I would be.  But a problem remains.
What occurred to me today was that maybe that is a good thing at this time.  A fighter only learns to fight through practice and battles.  What I am going through is tough.  Too tough for me.  But I am learning heaps in the practice and the battles.  Things I would not learn without them.
There would be no way I could relate to others without facing what they face.  I know I do not need to lose to a lot of things to win.  Sometimes the winning is the avoidance.  But I do tend to sit up and listen to another who can relate to me.
I guess what I am getting at is I refuse to stress about things I feel need to be dealt with when other things are happening, and issues being dealt with.
From seeing the statistics concerning stress these days it seems to be a big issue.  The stress I am dealing with is not the type where a professional is called for or naturally occurs with a deadline or performance.  It is the vague feeling of discontent.  A feeling that it is all too much and where will it all end.  A feeling that discourages me from trying at all.
I can do without that.  I have enough on my plate.  Besides, I aim to win and to win I need to defeat something.