Move Along

I realized at about 7pm last night I had not posted a blog for the day.
I remembered in part something James Clear said.  It was about giving yourself a bit of space.  He said missing one day was unfortunate, missing two in a row is the beginning of a new habit.  Well, I do not have a desire for that.  I sorta see myself at the moment as a tenacious dog holding onto a rope who will not let go.  I have had it in the past where a dog I was trying to get a rope from, would rather spin around in the air than let go of the rope.  That is me right now.  Holding on because I want what I want.
Yesterday was one of them days.  Sorta the best and the worst of things.
It started real early preparing for a group of guys that come once a month to eat, chat and hear someone’s story.  I have loved each of those get togethers and yesterday was no exception.  As is my custom I spend a lot of time watching.  I want to ensure all have all they need and no one is missing out on food or chat.
I was so happy to see interaction happening so naturally.  The life story (as much as one can say in about 20minutes) was as spell binding as I have seen here.  I reckon everyone was hanging on every word.
It was after that that I had a real internal struggle.  Someone had texted me to say they could not make it as they had 100 trees to plant.  My desire was to help but apart for a couple of calls and moral support it did not happen.  He told me he had it and was due to finish not long after I had decided I could be there.
In one sense I was relieved as it was a stinking hot day, I was not feeling well, and I had something else that needed doing.  I ended up doing the other thing I had to do which was to set up our hall for the next day.  At least what I had to do was done even if I felt bad that what I wanted to do was not done.
Anyway I have decided to not beat myself up today.  Yesterday, though good and not so good is done.  Today is a new day and has its own challenges.  There is no profit in giving up but there is profit in learning and moving on.