Minor Key

It is a generalization but it seems to be true much of the time.  Jubilant is a major key thing and longing or heartache is a minor key thing.  It is often something in the minor that gives voice to the unfulfilled or disappointments.  My dad used to like to listen to some music alone and his comment was it made him want to cry.  We had a neighbour who has since moved who lost his wife to cancer who would play sad songs when thinking of the loss.
I read in a book today an expression I know I can relate to.  It was “life in the minor key.”  My first expression in leaving the womb is to cry, and it seems to be the lot of humankind that they are born to trouble.  No matter how insulated I make myself, minor key things find me.
I know of no one who does not have some unfulfilled longing or question as to why.  For some it is an unexpected bad diagnosis, for others it is kids that seem a million miles away.  For still others it is something bad that happened that provokes if onlys and a feeling that they were in the wrong place at the wrong time.  Sometimes it is missing someone who was close but is close no longer.
Then there is the longing for something better.  I remember someone saying something like “the proof that something exists is the existence of the longing for it.”  It seems to me there is a lot of unhappiness and discontent.  Much of the outlook today seems to be it is ok to be happy, but grief is said to be a private matter only.  There is no place for grief in my facades.  I am encouraged not to talk about what is most common.
Everyone goes through stuff.  Despite what I am told I do not need to face difficulties alone.  Coming to grips with something is personal, but the process does not need to be.  Often when I face something alone, I may not have the resources to meet it, but others bring more of what is needed.
I guess I am heading down this track as a lack of honesty frustrates me.  Everyone hurts.  I face things I would rather not confront.  I am encouraged to be stoic - to feel my feelings are an expression of a lack only.
I have a real problem with that.  To me questions are not a manifestation only of lack but a genuine expression of feelings.  Voicing doubts is a lack of faith only if it is given in the context of a feeling there is a lack of ability or desire to make things right.  To me doubts without faith lead to hopelessness while doubts with faith in someone’s ability leads to confidence.
There are things I do not understand, expressed in a minor key, but there remains a confidence that all will end in a major key.