Major

It is one of those weeks.  I am deliberately staying in bed a little longer.  I still get up super early but about an hour after I was.  Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t.  It does not really matter to me as long as I still do what I always do which I reckon is a great way to start the day.
I had two shots yesterday.  Covid and flu.  Covid in the right arm and flu in the left.  It is weird but when I went to bed the flu arm ached a little and this morning the covid one does and the flu one is like it never happened.
I did the dictionary thing.  The word my finger fell on was “major.”  As seems to be happening a lot of late, I feel that word reflects what I am thinking right now.
By that I mean that I am feeling very strongly right now that whatever I major on dominates.  My choice.  I can major on what pulls down and causes me self-induced grief, or, as I wrote yesterday, I can major on looking for the good in the bad.
Either like produces like in that good produces more good, or I break the mold and have bad produce good.  Either way good results.  That is the aim anyway.  Bad does not hinder questions and initial dismay but I reckon that is incredibly healthy.
I will not live in denial.  If I have a sickness it needs fixing.  Pretending it does not exist is counter productive.  It may kill me if I do not get it dealt with.  So for me sometimes when I am alone, having a good whinge helps to rid me of the poison. It is not a whinge without hope but a whinge to the author of hope that can actually do something.
It may not be a restoration to the way things were, but it is guaranteed to be a restoration that will make things better than they were.  Maybe I do not understand but I trust.  Any healing of sickness produced a better result.
It can sound incredibly selfish but even what happens to another is about me for me.  I really feel I have my own road to walk.  I can choose to stop because of perceived or actual injustice but as they say, “the way for evil to win is for good people do to nothing.”
So I will choose to major in what is good even when what is around me may scream the opposite.