Keep on keeping on

It is a real cliché but I think it is a very important truism.  “Never doubt in the dark what was true in the light.”
Why that one means a lot to me is that sometimes I am inclined to let feelings take over.  I do not necessarily feel like doing what I know is right for me to do.  I would rather do my own thing. 
It can be that I have been listening to negative voices in my head.  It can also be that I have been down the road before, and how I am inclined to respond at that given moment is the way I have always responded.
That to me is a major stumbling block.  On a purely physiological level I have establish pathways in my brain that take what seems to be the easiest option.  It is a learned behaviour.  But one that has always seen me not reach the goal I may have.  I know that when ever I have followed it, it has been like snakes and ladders, and I find myself descending a ladder and starting from the bottom again.
The amazing thing is though I always find I am in the same situation again.  Avoidance does not make the problem disappear, it just means it needs to be confronted again down the track. To me it is like my perception of many video games where getting to the next level means I need to complete successfully the level before.
It really depends how much I want something.  If my desire is not strong enough, I will fall at the same hurdle and give up.  But if I do want something I will deal with what has caused me to stop, and move on.
I totally know I need help with that one but the one I depend on has never let me down, and he won’t start now.  To me that sort of adds to the adventure.  Nothing like dealing with what for me has proved impossible.