Honest With Myself

I guess it is a bit of a theme I have going at the moment.  I did not mean to, but a song I was listening to reminded me of the need to be honest with myself. 
In many ways I find that the hardest thing.  I demand honesty in my dealings with others whether I am buying the groceries, a car or house or investing money.   I expect an honest report from a doctor even if the news is bad.  The only way I can deal with a situation, and do what I need to do, is if I am aware of the facts.
People go down for fraud.  Ripping others off.  There have been some huge sentences when people have trusted another and lost big time.  Even when losses may be smaller it becomes a case of once bitten twice shy.  Like the girl who claimed on Facebook to have some terminal illness only to have it discovered that was never the case.  People in their compassion donated to her, but it was all a lie to garner finance.
One place we looked at for a possible table tennis hall was a very large incomplete building.  People had contributed, but it was something that did not go anywhere.  Some lost huge amounts.  It seems to me that when people are willing to give, it is important the thing they are giving to is a goer.
Yet here I am wanting others to be upfront, but it is so easy to not be upfront with myself.  I often make all sorts of excuses for things in my life I know need dealing with but will not confront them head on.  If I saw another doing it I would be honest with them, but I often fail to be that way with myself.
I know that a key to someone being helped is their willingness to admit they need help.  Yet I know from my own experience that can be hard.  After all, people might then know that the front I maintain is just that – a front.
I do not think it is fair or right to demand of others what I do not demand of myself.  To make it very much a case of “do what I say not what I do.”  Those that know me know I will not ask someone to do something I am not willing to do.  Often I do not have the skill needed, and it is best for everyone that I get someone else to do it, but I am willing.
I find it is best for me when I acknowledge when I need help.  It is the only way to get past something that may be a blockage to my going on.  It all depends on how much I want to change.  If that is what I want I will do what it takes even if it means I need to be honest with myself.