Full

Dictionary day once again.  The word my finger fell on today was “full.”  There was like a huge entry for that that included things like full blooded, fullback, full stomach.  Other sources notes fulfill, chock- full, over full, and full measured.   
But I liked what it started with “holding all its limits will allow.”   Why I like that is it took me in a different direction.  When it comes to good stuff, I reckon full is good but I know a little container can be full and so can a big container.
For me I want to be “full” of love for others, or even full of the ability to assist.  I do not see any point in being full of something that is non transferrable.  For me it is all about being a river rather than a lake.  I am happy to contain a lake, but I do not want to end in a lake.
By that I mean full is for sharing.  It is living in the hope that I will be full again.  Usage is replenished.  In some ways it is scarier.  Yet I have found that giving out is never a zero sum game.  Always – without exception, giving leads to getting and I always have all I need both for me and for those I need it for.
To me full is very much a relative term.  I am reminded of the little boy who was told he would be given lollies.  So he put out both hands and cupped them.  He was ready to receive the max.  In the same way I want to be an eski rather than a shot glass.  Both can be 100% full but one contains way more than the other.
When I walked to work in the city I used to love building sites.  I could tell how tall a building would be by the depth of the foundations.  Small foundations, small building.  Large foundation, large building.  Both were “full” as in “fit for purpose” but the full of the large building meant a larger capacity.
In the same way my “full” depends on my capacity.  If I want a large capacity my foundations need to be deep and wide.  Definitely more work but greater reward.
Dams increase capacity.  Certainly silt can build up and needs to be gotten rid of and there are things I get rid of to maintain capacity.  But the whole point for me is the more I get the more I can give.  In my mind the larger the capacity the better, and that makes the preliminary work so worthwhile.