Faithful

It’s funny but I think a lot of what I write is very similar.  Not the one-offs like our new shed (did I tell you we have a new shed?), but the other stuff.
I thought this morning there is no need to be concerned about that.  Much of what I write is to do with how I make myself feel better about myself.  I know I do not have it all together.  I make boo boo’s.  But that is never the end of the story.  Failing does not make me a failure.
There are a couple of qualities I really believe I must have.  It seems it does not matter to some.  But it matters to me.  Love and loyalty.
I personally reckon love covers it.  Love works at treating someone well.  It seems to me if I love in more than words only, I will only ever do what is good for a person.  Sometimes that may mean I bite my tongue.  The door may be wide open for me to put down someone big time.   To deliver the fatal verbal blow.  Love is refraining.  Love is helping the person past the stumbling block.  It may mean nothing to the person I help, but it means a lot to me.  I don’t need to climb to the top of the heap on the carcasses of others.  I want us all to be on the top of the heap.  Besides, they say it is lonely at the top, and I don’t want to be lonely.
There is no doubt about it though, being loyal is also a biggy for me.  It is important to me that if I say something, I mean it.  I knock myself around big time if I fail to fulfil my word.
For me being loyal is more that about keeping my word.  I try to be loyal in what I do.  It seems silly to me to agree to do something and then to do it half-heartedly.  It is better to either put my whole heart into something and go for it, or to never agree to it in the first place.  That is not to deny that sometimes something can seem overwhelming down the track and, through consultation, to say goodbye to it.  But it is saying goodbye after giving a red hot go, rather than saying an unthinking yes and deciding it is all too much without having really given it a go. What is even worse to me is to say yes to something only because of the prestige associated with it.  To do that is to me, is standing in the way of someone who wants it and will probably do a great job.
But the bottom line in my being loyal is to not betraying confidences.  I have good friends and we share a lot, but I would not share some things with them.  There are others I feel I can open myself up to.  There are few things worse to me than having my vulnerability ridiculed or exploited.  That to me is a betrayal.  I don’t think that makes me thin skinned.  Things happen beyond my control.  But I will try to control what I can.
As with so much it comes back to doing to others as I would be done by.  I blow it.  It is important to me others support rather than condemn me. I tend to try to be true to my word.  I gravitate to others who are like that too. Pro 3:3