Easy Come, Easy Go

Today’s home truth is borne of something I thought to myself earlier.  “Feelings are fickle.”
Sometimes I am a real list man and cross things off as they are done and enjoy a real feeling of accomplishment.  At other times despite a list I do not feel like doing anything.  I know I need to rest when my body tells me to rest.  Yet at other times I know my feelings are telling me something I do well to ignore.  I do things despite how I feel not because of how I feel.
There are undoubtedly times when I feel totally alone and unmotivated and wonder will I ever feel different again.  It reminds me of a time of drought in Townsville and I looked at the blue sky a and wondered if it would ever rain again.  It did.  Time goes quick, but in the midst of things sometimes it can seem time goes real slow.
It is amazing to me that I can be absorbed in something and the time seems to go by so fast.  I wonder to myself “where did that time go?”  While at other times it seems the clock has almost stopped and time drags.  Nothing is different except me and the way I feel.
That is why to me feelings are not my template.  I can be over the moon with excitement and I can be down in the dumps.  The way I feel is more to do with bio rhythms and news I get rather than the way things are. The person next to me can be as happy as Larry (Larry must have been a happy person) while I am the exact opposite - or it can be the other way around.
So to me it is important I look beyond my fleeting feelings to something more solid and secure.  I will not deny my feelings as they are the way I feel.  Yet I know the way I feel is temporary.  Whether I feel great or terrible the truth is constant.  When I feel bad, I know that all storms pass and I will feel different again.